Why so?????i dont know...

At time..it feels really strange when you are crowded among people known, yet one feels, why so lonely????? Dats what xactly happens to me sometimes...my day kicked off wid a usual 7a.m. alarm which i re-alarmed it for 8, to get some more sleep....Books r da first thing dat i see in da morning...forwarded wid breakfast, lunch nd a lonely way 2 my classes at 5pm, coz my fellow mate didnt wish 4 a go...sitting in da bus all alone made me feel sick nd tired..passengers were there around single or coupled, but i felt J, coz dey were ocuupied wid something or da other whereas i was not...no remembrence, no thoughts, nothing..da day felt dull 4 me wid no memories 2 re-think..why so, i didnt know....2 occupy myself or as confessed, to hide my loneliness..da only thing i found wid me was da ear-phone for my cell which i had brought wid me considering as a time-pass..da music was playing, RJs were speaking, yet i couldnt hear dem..why so????i didnt know....da walk across da Durgapur bridge to my classes was as boring as da bus-drive..i small 5-star..in my pocket tempt 2 cheer me up...but it was eaten without any satisfaction..why so???? i didnt know....
Probably 2day my sir also seemed like a devil 2 me, coz he left no way out 4m making me more bored nd lonely..da chair beaside me, dat of my friend, felt empty nd deserted...probably if occupied...i had a chance 2 cheer up.....but da day was already planned hard for me..why so?????i didnt know.....back home walking down da Durgapur bridge...taking an auto...nd den walk in my room....dunno why..everything seemed careless nd unfinished....as i sit here in front of my pc at 9pm in da eve...i still dunno wht 2 do or wht sense it makes 4m wht i had written..is it gonna help you 2 know how 2 cheer me up, or is dis da only way 2 split out da loneliness out of my heart..why so???????i dont know....

XAMS OR MARRIAGE.....Which is Important??????

It sometimes feels really strange when u r loaded wid stuffs to be done..but u find nowhere 2 escape from da burden..well u must b wonderin, what made me said dese..well xam phobias sometime do makes you feel giddy, irritated, unbalanced nd sometime..over-weighted...my 1st sem xams r knockn at my door...4th feb s da D-Day..i dunno wht 2 do..or wht 2 study...2hrs wid books made me feel dat i hav been sittin wid it ages...why dis depression..is it bcoz am nt preapred..or coz am not confident abt what i read?????????? No idea, no clue, no option....it was my decission nd it gt 2 b me 2 da finish...

One thing dat is really cheerin me up is my brother's upcomin marriage...dat is somthing am lookin 4wrd more dan my damn xams....probably dats blockin my mind from da books..but dis cant b helpd....i knw it sounds weird dat wid my upcomin xams how da hell i can go gaga abt da marriage..well dats wht we call "Human Psychology"....one dat is less important bcoms priority of life at times..dats wht xacly happening wid me at dis time..."i think i'll complete da chapter bt den da red salwar dat i got 4 myself is gonna kill every1's eye on da marriage day"...."Indian Penal Code had gt something 2 do wid dat Case Study2..bt den, which jeans will match my jacket more 4 da reception"..oh god!!! dis kills man..why da hell cant i concentrate on wht am suppose 2....do i need 2 reconsider dose chapters b4 i go on a further deatailin abt my get-ups 4 da functions???????????????